Senses.

I had a full blown, nearly fainting episode of panic attack inside the Homeless garden project trying to buy candles and honey for my step mom.
I was Light headed and all.
The smell of lavender.
I Had to JET outta there before passing out. . It was pretty intense.
My breathing was very rattled.
I find I can’t calm down. I feel very edgy and my body vibrates again with the deep missing and longing for my mom.
I feel empty.
Tired.
Alone.
Just the smell of lavender alone could effect me so deeply.
My mom used to hide lavender in my drawers, in my couch and in my jacket pockets. I see it as hiding love all around my house.

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